MS Strong......and beautiful......Meet Suzanne!

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When were you diagnosed with MS and what was the first thing you did after you found out?: I had suspected I had MS for a few years so when I finally got the confirmation I took it pretty stoically... it didn't really hit me for about 2 weeks. Since I have many other severe health problems, I didn't take MS so hard - it was just a drop in the bucket. So the first thing I did after I found out, were researching and ordering books about MS - I was in TCB (Taking Care of Business) mode. When it did hit me, I had a very dark time for a few weeks, but I came out of that stronger than ever.

What advice would you give to someone just finding out they have MS?: Once you are diagnosed, it's already too late -- what I mean by that is doctors, clinics and support systems should distribute helpful literature or point patients in the direction of MS groups *before* they are diagnosed. By the time I found out for sure that I had MS, I would have been a lot more comfortable if there also wasn't a massive and unexpected deluge of phone calls, emails, paperwork, articles, Facebook groups etc etc etc unleashed at the same time. Also, be prepared that you will have to manage other people's reactions when you tell them. A few friends burst out crying, which was loving and supportive I'm sure, but was pretty annoying. It's my job to comfort you over my Dx?!?

What is something good that came out of your MS diagnosis?: I was diagnosed with three neurological diseases in the space of a few months after suffering for 12 years, so the main good thing that came from my Dx was knowledge. I was relieved to find out I had MS, frankly! Prior to that we thought I had a world-class "Mystery Disease" that would never be diagnosed let alone treated. A full 30% of my life (12 years) was thrown out the window while I suffered with mysterious pains, seizures, nausea, dizziness, vision loss, distorted sensory perception etc. It turns out the other 2 neurological diseases were combining in very weird ways with the MS that made all 3 very hard to diagnose. So getting all these Dxs has given me my life back! Now we have a treatment plan, and everything has a name to it.

What is your morning routine?: I don't let any one of my 7 major diseases rule my life, not a one of them will ever get 100% of my attention as that will inevitably adversely affect another one. So my routine is very fine-tuned... but mornings are fine. I'm a full-time freelance opera singer and model, so my schedule is my own. Puppy snuggling is part of every morning! I build lots of relaxation time into every day, so when I do work I am efficient and work quickly. I manage to keep up two international careers on 50% steam!

How has MS affected your daily life?: My main MS symptom right now is feet and leg pain/ tingling if I stand for too long, Sadly this is hard to avoid as a performer who's often on stage, so I work with the conductor/ stage manager/ choreographer to modify things for me. because I fought MS totally on my own for some many years, my daily life isn't affected much differently; but now people understand and give me some slack. That's a massive relief, let me tell you. Now I am working with other models who have chronic diseases, mainly MS, to put on a fashion show and perhaps some nation-wide advocacy.

Can you remember your saddest memory of your life?: When my beautiful, amazing angel doggy died about 2 weeks after my Dx and multiple hospitalization. It was amazingly cruel that the Universe took my baby from me during the worst time of my life.

Can you remember the happiest moment of your life?: Singing my favorite piece of music in Italy, on its 400th anniversary, standing on the grave of the composer!
Walking in paris Plus Fashion Week and signing with the #1 plus agency in the world!
Those were two of my happiest moments...

What is the greatest achievement you have done since being diagnosed and how were you able to achieve it?: There is no one achievement - partly because there is no one disease. I have had seizures on stage during an opera but kept performing. I have lost vision in the middle of performance. I am very proud of the national magazine and blog interviews I've given over the past year about MS and other chronic diseases... as a proud plus model and diversity advocate, working with the disabled community is very important to me. Push yourself as hard as you can, but know your limits, and carve out something awesome in the middle!

Any other thoughts you would like to share?: Find the treatment plan/ doctors/ medical team/ diets that work for you! One of the hardest things for me since getting Dxed is the harassment of other MS sufferers, or folks who know nothing at all about MS, who try to ram their own plans down your throat. There are some cults out there, so be careful and protect yourself. I let a few Bullies pressure me into plans there were not right for me, and the results were not good. Stand your ground! Do your research, use your intellect and your instinct, get second opinions, listen to your body. It's your health and your MS. It took me far, far longer to get Dxed than most, so I *earned* it. It's MY MS.

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I have lived with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) for the past 9 years.  The disease can be very frustrating if you let it.  During the initial diagnosis and investigation of treatment options I was very frustrated about the lack of a cure.  It can be a very debilitating disease effecting over 400,000 Americans. Through medicine requiring regular shots, changes to my diet and changes to my lifestyle, I have been able to continue to do the things I love including Pilates, yoga, skiing, and taking care of my young grandchildren. .

When I was first diagnosed I was almost embarrassed to tell anyone including my close friends.  Then as I learned more about the disease and after going to many meetings and functions of the local chapter of the National MS Society, I began to share my disease with others.  The first reaction of many was “oh I am so sorry “and I would say I’m not.  Then people would say but you look so good.  I would say how am I supposed to look?  They didn’t know what to say.  When I grew up in Utah I only knew one person who had MS and she had 5 children and lived for a long time.  One thing to remember is nobody dies from the disease they die from complications caused by MS.

I am sure I had MS for many years before being diagnosed.  Once being diagnosed I went to several neurologists before finding Dr. Chaudhary who literally saved me from being in a wheelchair.  In 9 years the results of my annual MRI’s aren’t any worse and I am functioning well.

I try not to worry about the future but just function with my daily life the best I can.  I participate in many Multiple Sclerosis functions including the annual MS Walk, MS Challenge Walk and MS Dinner Auction.  I have a very supportive husband who is always there when I need to talk to someone about any struggles I have with MS.  

I am out to conquer my disease and not let it get the best of me!

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When were you diagnosed with MS and what was the first thing you did after you found out?: In February 1992 I was first affected by MS. While playing basketball for Wester Wyoming Community College I collapsed on the court with seizure like activity. After that evening I was hospitalized twice, misdiagnosed on three occasions and it wasn’t until November 1997 that I was diagnosed with MS. After almost 6 years of dealing with different neurological problems I was relieved to be told that I had Multiple Sclerosis. I finally knew what was causing all of those neurological problems.

What advice would you give to someone just finding out they have MS?: We don’t have to just accept and deal with the challenges that MS brings our way. There are an abundance of resources out there to help with the challenges of MS, use them. Remember that attitude everything. We can choose to be negative and miserable or we change find something positive in what we are going. This is not just the MS it is life in general that we have a choice.

What is something good that came out of your MS diagnosis?: I thank God for letting me have MS. I value life more and have a deeper appreciation for the abilities I do have.

What is your morning routine?: I start most of morning at 6:00am going to spin class or when the weather is nice enough riding my bike outside. Depending on the day, I may need to take one of my 20 minute naps just to recharge for the rest of the day. The morning is the best time of day for me.

How has MS affected your daily life?: It totally depends on the day as to how the MS affects my daily life. It’s not even day to day but hour to hour, minute to minute. I may be having a great day until I start getting dinner ready and then by the time we have finished dinner and I go to stand up I find that my strength and stability are zapped. This is when I need to be humble and ask for help or even be okay with leaving the dinner mess until later or even tomorrow.

Can you remember your saddest memory of your life?: Having my grandmother pass away and then having to bury her on my 17th birthday. She was one of my best friends growing up.

Can you remember the happiest moment of your life?: The day I married my incredibly supportive and loving husband.

What is the greatest achievement you have done since being diagnosed and how were you able to achieve it?: I’ve had a number of great achievements since being diagnosed with MS. Let me share the most recent achievement…

The Colorado-Wyoming chapter of the National MS Society honored me with the MS Champion award at their annual Dinner of Champions. The video will give you a bigger picture of some of the blessings and challenges life with MS has brought me. You can click on the link below to watch to video clip.

Any other thoughts you would like to share?: My dearest Wendy another happiest part of my life is you and your friendship.